Five Minute Friday: Listen

Hello again! I hope you’re having a fun Friday. I wanted to pop on since I have a few minutes to write with the Five Minute Friday community.

Listen

I shared a story recently and the person listening remarked that I still sounded hurt. I agreed and knew that another lap of forgiveness was needed.

The process of forgiveness and getting rid of every bitter root can feel so slow sometimes. I can think I’m done and have checked off that box only to find that there’s still some left. Yet, leaving them there only blocks my heart and limits what God wants to do.

In the natural, I’m reminded of the debris left behind after pulling out a bush or shrub. When we did some landscaping and took out some overgrown shrubs the mess they left behind was surprising. Even if they did not go deep, they still left all sorts of little twigs, roots, dirt, and junk. The initial action only started the good work. We needed to stay the course and finish getting rid of it all. Then we needed to fill it back in with something new.

The same can be true of forgiveness and bitterness. What am I choosing today to fill back in? Am I choosing to tear out all the roots, deal with the debris, AND plant in hope, love, kindness? Or am I leaving the gaping hole to fill with the next little root? Am I listening to God’s prompting and to my own voice for those invitations to go deeper toward wholeness and healing?

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Happy Birthday, Canon!

Wow! Another year has passed by and I say this every time but I cannot believe my baby is 1 (as of September 14!)! Every day feels like such a gift. Life with three at home has been a wild ride and some days I wonder how we survive but we have. I love so much about this season and know there’s more fun to come.

What we have learned…you love to climb! You keep trying to climb the chairs and wherever you can. You’ve dipped down in weight but still feel solid. You like to go explore by yourself but also really love mom and dad. You go running when daddy gets home or when you hear the shower turn off or someone in the bathroom. You also have a few words including mama (for both mom and more), dada, bye bye.

What we are enjoying…hiking when we can! We’ve snuck out to Carlos State Park, Brophy Park trails, and Glacial Lakes State Park. We are enjoying the nice weather while we can!

What are struggles…still working on more sleep and getting enough food you like.

Most exciting milestones…lots of walking and climbing and of course your birthday! 7 teeth.

What Canon seems to like…soft things, brief snuggles, being where everyone is, exploring new things, climbing, being held at times and picking how to be held, taking out books, getting into the glass door bookshelf, being chased, and still loving the dishwasher.

Dislikes seem to be…getting stuck when he tries climbing the kitchen chairs, when we won’t let him go outside on the deck, and when he has to wait for food.

What sleep looks like…he is finally getting better at nighttime sleep! Goes to bed around 8 and wakes up around 7-8. Napping around 10:30 and then in the afternoon too.

He’s eating…everything we are! He had fun trying cake and ice cream too! He’s nursing only twice a day now and working toward weaning.

Who we have seen…had fun getting together with people for Canon’s birthday!

At the last doctors appointment…he’s wearing size 3 diapers and mostly 12 month clothes with a few 18 month thrown in there. At the end of September, he weighed 20 lb 7 oz and was 30.5 inches tall. He’s kind of a skinny guy right now but still feels pretty solid.

Music

I love finding new music and this late summer/fall seems to be full of new albums being released! Some of my favorites from lately include:

Holding Onto You by Paul and Hannah McClure

Favorite lyric: “You are the answer for all my questioning…you are the stillness when the storm is deafening

The Way Home by Paul and Hannah McClure

Favorite lyric: I believe that You You’re with me even though I’ve tried to walk alone So I will follow You Oh, anywhere You go…I found in You my home..”

Powerful God by Expressions58

Favorite lyric: “You’re a powerful God. This I know this I know. I serve a powerful God. You’re my powerful God… The defender of my hope in victory is fighting for me. Even when I don’t understand I’m still in the palm of your hand. Even when I don’t understand still I’ll praise you.”

Ready or Not by Hillsong United

“There’s no place like His presence. There’s no time like the now. He’s not moved by perfection Or how well we look the part But He’s wild about the hidden stuff Like He’s wild about the heart”

I’ll Give Thanks by Housefires, Kirby Kaple

“In the morning you sing over me and I receive your mercy. Your faithfulness is clear to see it’s like the sunrise constant everyday. Though this season doesn’t tell my story I know you’ll move mountains for me you’re just that good so I’ll give thanks to God.

I’m Listening by Chris McClarney

I don’t wanna miss one word You speak ‘Cause everything You say is life to me So quiet my heart, I’m listening”

What have you been listening to lately?

Five Minute Friday: Success

I’m back here again ready to spend a few minutes writing. Hope you enjoy and are having a fun Friday!

Success

I recently listened to the Carey Nieuwhoff podcast with JD Greear and Todd Wilson (#287 on the podcast). While they were talking about church multiplication and leaving a legacy, one of them shared a moment with the Lord that has stuck with me. If you have a chance go listen because there is depth in hearing tone and emotion but in short I’ll give you the general idea.

One of the guys was praying about their church and wanting to see their church really impact the city even to the point of ending up in history books. He felt like God came back and asked him what if it’s not your church–do you still have such a heart for these people that you want to see that?

The story hit my heart and resonated with me. There is so much “success” in the Kingdom that we may be a part of but we may not be given credit. Our prayers may bring change that we never see in our lifetime.

Jesus has such a way of taking what we think would be success and showing us a different way. He shows up going lower and clothed in humility. He did not seek to become the king or to bring out weapons.

May my version of success become more about time with the Father and obedience. May my eyes be opened to seeing what God is doing in circumstances. Not my will but Your will be done.

Challenge

I missed the 5 Minute Friday from last week and I have a bit of time so I wanted to jump onboard now especially since I kept thinking about the prompt today.

Challenge

My son, I’m so proud of you. I “dragged” you on a hike today and some of the hills were pretty big for your little legs. I saw you run down hills and continue to work your way back up. You would run ahead of me and then lag behind walking to your own beat. You picked me some “flowers” that were kind of weeds but your smile meant the world. At the end, I told you we could leave them for the deer to eat so we didn’t have to bring them in the car. You agreed we could do that but probably would have been thrilled to have brought them home too.

I see your starts and stops. You are asking questions about this world. You are trying on phrases you’ve heard others use and often you don’t fully know the context. You’re learning so much. You are learning to pray and learning about who God is. You have strong feelings sometimes about not wanting to walk another step. You tell me you don’t ever want to walk this path again. Yet, we reset and exchange the words for some truth and encouragement. I’m sure you’ll tire of hearing me say, “All things are possible with God” or “Nothing is impossible with God” or “Have you asked God for the key?”

You are strong and you can keep trying. Even when the challenge feels insurmountable, I pray that you know you have a God on your side who is cheering you on and with you in whatever challenge may come.

BIO Girls

This summer I helped with a program called BIO Girls. We met for 12 weeks and built relationships with girls around 2nd grade to 5th grade. Each week, we had some fun activities, a lesson, and a workout. The big goal at the end was to run a 5k race together. Now, there were definitely ups and downs within the weeks as well as pros/cons with the program but mostly I loved being with the girls. I loved getting a chance to know them a little bit better and to really cheer them on each week! Yesterday, we ran our race and even though the weather was super rainy that morning we were still able to run! The girls did so well and crushed their goals. Every girl finished the race and accomplished so much.

I personally don’t have a PR for my 5k to take home but I had the privilege and honor to run alongside someone who does have one! Being in the role of mentor and coach may not get you on the podium but it sure makes for an even more valuable, worthwhile, and memorable experience!

4 years

Grief has a funny way of being very present and still changing with time. I don’t always know how to navigate these waters and am figuring it out as we go. Sometimes I want a manual to tell me what’s coming but then I doubt we would fit the mold.

We made a cake again this year to celebrate. We’ve all grown this past year (especially Canon! He was so little last year). I find myself still trying to find the words to talk about my kids. I get kind of stubborn and start adding “at home” to things. Like I have three kids at home and how Canon is the third at home. I’m sure most people don’t notice but for me it helps acknowledge I have another sweet baby who is with Jesus (an even better home) without having to constantly go through the explanation of how we lost a baby.

So, sweet Enoch, I remember you so often and miss you. While I wish you were home with us, I’m grateful for the hope we have in heaven. You are loved. Still.