Today I’m grateful for…
1. Long walks with Asher and Boaz
2. A second walk with the husband
3. Husbands who get little boys to sleep
4. Time reading together
5. Yummy food
Pretty sure God is spoiling us with such beautiful weather in October. I’m sure thankful for these days where I can sneak outside for long walks with these two. I definitely often feel closest to God when I’m outside enjoying all that He created.
Dear little man,
I’m realizing all over again about how so much of this journey includes learning to let go. I got to carry you around for nine months (granted, I only knew about you for like 7 and a half but still!) and then you got to be out in this crazy world where other people got to experience you even more. Already you’re showing your personality and liking being on your own playing some times (you still prefer to be with us though!). I know that sitting, crawling, walking, and running will come with all their own forms of letting you go. I prayed tonight that God would keep helping me let go of you more and more. I prayed that I would be able to teach you that you can make decisions on your own and wise ones too (and that you’d know asking for help is a sign of strength not weakness). I don’t want to control or run your life. Teach, train, guide, and love…absolutely. So, here goes for learning more and more to let go and put you back in God’s hands. Oh, and don’t sweat making mistakes…we all make lots of them and thankfully we can fall forward and we are still loved.
You are loved little man.
I saw Kelly Rae Roberts post this in her mirror and I’ve seen it on Momastery’s site. I just love it. I love being reminded that “we” not “I” can do hard things. We can do them together and we don’t have to go it alone. We can reach out and ask for what we need. We can make it happen. We can extend love, grace, and truth to each other as we each walk through our own hard things while helping carry the burdens. Now those kind of people who help carry your burden (and keep you accountable to carry your load) are the ones who stand with you doing the hard stuff that life throws our way. They’re the ones who help speak truth to you when you’ve forgotten. They say you are loved and you are not alone.
There is something so fun about watching other people love well. Whether it’s watching others love my son or my husband, there is just a sweetness about it. I’ve loved watching my husband and my family love Asher. I can easily forget that these people love me well too. There’s a beauty in accepting love instead of denying it or being too prideful about receiving it. I want to keep on learning to, as Brene Brown says, not puff up or shrink down…to walk steadfastly in love and accept and receive being loved without expectations.
He’s just the cutest puppy! I can’t believe he is almost 3!