Soul Cravings, Part 2

“There is only one reason for God to come himself, because in issues of love, you just can’t have someone else stand in for you.”

I have never thought of this in quite the same light.  How amazing that God came.  God came because He is love.  

Think on this. ¬†You’re madly in love. ¬†You met, became friends, and started dating. ¬†He brings you flowers for no reason at all. ¬†You take long walks and talk about anything and everything. ¬†He takes you on dates. ¬†He teaches you new things and you learn about each other along the way. ¬†Your community (friends, church, family) actively engage and advise on your relationship. ¬†Everything is going perfectly. ¬†You want to spend the rest of your life together. ¬†

His friend shows up at your door with flowers and a ring. ¬†He proposes to you for your love. ¬†What!? I don’t think so! ¬†I, for one, would not be happy at all if someone else proposed for him. ¬†Even more, I would be sad that he was not there.

So, in all reality, it makes sense that God came.  He came to show His love.

The Letters

Read on if you’ve read The Letters¬†by Luanne Rice and Joseph Monninger. ¬†If you have not read the book, you may want to stop here and come back because there will be SPOILERS! ¬†Thanks to the Hoochee book club for the suggestions (I’m just a bit late on posting this…though I did read the book the week of Christmas…still late, but not as late as now!)

Heart-wrenching, heart string-pulling letters. The kind of letters that make you want to get up and yank two people back together. At least until you find out about a few specific reasons that caused them to drift apart. 

Affairs. Emotional. Physical.

Thankfully, I’m usually not a crier, but I will say that my eyes may have teared up a little. ¬†But I was also angry. ¬†Angry that they would let this drive them apart. ¬†Angry that she would do that. ¬†Angry that he would leave. ¬†But sad. ¬†Sad that their son died. Sad that they were shaken to the core. Sad that people would manipulate them for money. ¬†But thankful for letters that kept them connected, that helped them share and open up when everything seemed too hard. ¬†

All of that to say that even now my feelings about the book are a mixed bag. ¬†I read it in one sitting. Devoured it and yet I’m left with an aching to know what happens next. ¬†I do love the idea of falling all over again through letters. I’m a romantic at heart, admittedly. ¬†So, did you read it? ¬†Thoughts?

p.s. I totally want to go to Alaska and go on a sled with dogs ūüôā

Happy Day!

We probably found a house to live in starting in May! I’m psyched!¬† I am really hoping this one will work out.¬† One of my roommates has to look at the house still so we’re waiting for her to give the go ahead.¬† This has been a huge weight on my mind and a stressor.¬† I kept realizing that I have to move out in less than 3 weeks! Sad, crazy, exciting, fun, new.¬† I’m ready for a little change in life and to decorate a new room (we might even get to paint!)!¬† Plus, the house sits adjacent to a running trail…I’m in heaven!¬† There’s also a deck for summer parties so get ready!

I’m staying…

Now that I am officially employed full-time…I guess I’m staying in the area for a while. Very weird to think about! Even though I kind of assumed/thought I would be…still. The realization that I have to find new doctors, dentists, places, ect makes me a bit sad. I like home even though I know I don’t want to be there now and that I’m not supposed to be there. Funny how I’m more homesick now than I’ve ever been–I don’t really get homesick…

But when I was driving the other day I just wanted to be able to drive to that place where I drive when I don’t know where else to go…the place you drive when you don’t want to go home quite yet, the place that gets you every time, that makes you smile even if you’re crying, yeah that place…

So, I’m staying…but looking for that place.