beauty

I like to play along on Fridays by writing out my heart in 5 minutes. Editing thrown out the window and a whole lot of streaming consciousness type writing.  More often than not, I like it and am surprised at where my pretty little heart takes me and gives me some food for thought to chat over with God about later….sooooooo, here goes.

5 minutes on Beauty.

I chase her down but elusive she stays just out of reach.  I find myself thinking that maybe just maybe if I eat less or if I happen to stumble upon a fabulous hair day or I throw on that pretty new outfit…maybe she’ll show up and I can hold her for longer than brief seconds.  Maybe he’ll turn his head and notice me.  But, really. I don’t know if it’s so much beauty that I desire, but the confidence of a woman whose position is strong and secure.  One who rejoices over the future and walks with strength and dignity.  I plaster that verse to my mirror in hopes to remind myself that the kind of beauty I want stems from a foundation secure in Him first and foremost.  When I am drawn away into distraction, I find myself teary eyed over all that I am not.  I ramble on in my head about how I am not skinny enough like her or tall enough or how when I lose weight I lose it where I don’t want or how I’m just never going to be that ridiculously outgoing jump up and down kind of girl….and that’s when it’s not beautiful.   To be beautiful requires exhaling into all of who He made me to be.  Walking with Him…confident, secure, grounded, solid…..beautiful.

*p.s. the verse reference is proverbs 31:25

Your turn! What comes out of your heart when you write about beauty?