But Mary treasured all these things, pondering them in her heart.
Luke 2:19
Oh, how my heart connects and resonates with this verse. I ponder so much {sometimes too much}. Yet, the God-stories keep brewing up in my heart. Often, they need to be treasured and pondered before poured out. God likes to move in a whirlwind to shake things up and fling wide His guiding hand. I am grateful for movement, but my processing lag keeps piling up. The words flitter on the edge of spilling out, but then I am speechless all at once. I keep saying, “Lord, help my unbelief. I can believe BIG for others, but help me believe BIG for me too. Help me believe that You really do have a good plan when all seems lost. Throw a few tangible love notes my way.” Yet, I am thankful that He does move even when I’m still saying, “Wha?” When I can’t even finish my question before falling headlong into his doors flung wide open. And as I so lovely just read, “Sometimes waiting takes a lot more effort than moving forward.” So, here I fall forward in some areas and keep on in the hard of waiting in others. Faithfulness abounds and the hard will bring even more God-stories.
So, tell me…how are you doing? pondering anything in your heart? waiting? falling headlong forward fast? where are you at now?
b'ahava 
I’ve been doing a lot more wrestling in my mind than pondering as of late. Thankfully, though, it seems I can finally come to rest and arrive at a place where I can begin to ponder again.
just was reading a preview of a book called wrestling prayer! sounds awesome and i totally get the wrestling. it’s all connected to my pondering.
Waiting, waiting to see what is best and where He has us next year. It is so hard to wait. I keep thinking I want to just know and see the map, but like we talked about, I probably really don’t 🙂
i like to think of waiting as serving. waiting like a waiter. asking god what can i do today to wait on you?
helps a bit.
but i agree…i don’t do well with waiting usually. i’m learning.