And all His work is done in truth.
The earth is full of the goodness of the Lord
He makes the plans of the peoples of no effect.
The counsel of the Lord stands forever.
He fashions their hearts individually
He considers all their works.
Our soul waits for the Lord.
For our heart shall rejoice in Him
because we have trusted in His holy name
I’ve laid claim to the verse in Isaiah 55:8 reminding me that my ways are not God’s ways. The NLT likes to add in that His ways are “far beyond anything you could imagine.” Sound familiar to oh say the verse in Ephesians 3:20? Yes, that’s right. He’s the God who “is able to do exceedingly abundantly above all that we ask or think.”
Yep. Now I have seen time and again that my plans, my ways are not God’s. I planned to be back in Africa. I’m not yet. I thought I’d be married. I’m not yet. I thought I’d be a lawyer. I’m not and thankful I’m not. I thought I’d settle in and the ache for Africa would fade. Nope, I’m settled and love where I belong this season, but the ache is stronger, the tears come fiercer.
Now, here’s the thing that gets me. I may think that I know myself pretty well (even though favorites stress me out). God knows me better. He fashioned my heart. He fills it with good, godly desires. He wants me to taste and see His goodness. Goodness that fills the entire earth and still overflows. He is trustworthy. And so I cling to this quote and the truth behind it about the God I love:
“If the One who can does not then that is better still…you’ve gotta trust God with what He says yes to and what He says no (or not yet) to but that doesn’t stop you from asking.”
So, I ask and ask and ask and ask.
and mostly wait to see what He will do
knowing that He will do what He wants in His timing
and the kicker is that
He fashioned my heart
He knows my heart’s desires
and what He wants
is best for me.
I am not in control
and that is OK.