Start: 10:03 p.m.
A four letter word that causes my eyes to go big sometimes or do a nice little eye roll while the word comes off my tongue with disdain.
I don’t like the word.
I just plain don’t like it.
I want to do.
Being and waiting are so much harder than doing.
So, being told to wait uh no thank you very much. I will pass right on by wait onto go.
Except life sometimes doesn’t give you a choice.
There are some things you can ask why and wrestle all the while trying desperately to do something but in the end you just have to wait.
Lately, I’ve been reminded that the waiting might not be about me at all. There really probably is not some magical once you’re “enough” or once you’ve worked through “most” of your junk then the waiting will be over.
Which again. Frustrates me to no end. Because I want a list. I want a do this and then you’ll get this. Hello issues with control, waiting, and just being.
At the end of the day, I know God is good. I know God is for me. I know God is working ALL things out for my good. I know God keeps His promises. I know He is faithful.
But part of waiting is living in the in between. Figuring out how to be comfortable in the uncomfortable.
Oh and there is no neat little bow. Wish there was…and wish I had time to wrap this post up prettier but I don’t.
p.s. so glad to be back writing! this week off for Spring Break has been oh so fantabulous but I definitely missed this space and writing even if my heart has felt a need for quiet, rest, and a chance to test the waters in learning how to just be… =)
p.p.s. if you have any advice for this girl who says wait like a four letter word…please share!