Countdowns…I got rid of mine. Why? Because I want to live in the present. I don’t want to get distracted by the “what if” or “I wish” or “I can’t wait until..” game like I have before. In the past, I’ve written posts about things I’m looking forward to and how far away they are. Some of those countdowns aren’t as exciting anymore or don’t have the same significance. Some take/took away my focus and let me play those games of selfishly wanting things as they are not.
I refuse to complain or get caught up in the wilderness because of my selfish desires. Instead of counting down, I’m asking God to help me count the day, the season, the moment. To take that step into the Promised Land. To let go of my picture of what I want life to be and trust that He wants to give me a life that is immeasurably more than the anything I could dream up for myself.
To take up my cross daily and to die to myself for Him. To live in such a way that the Holy Spirit guides my path and every word. Forgetting what is behind and straining toward what is ahead by focusing on what I can do today to press into Him and dig deep to have more of Him and less of me. The rest doesn’t matter.
I need to obey today because if I love him, I will obey His commands no matter what.