Lesson of the Day

As I’ve mentioned earlier, I’m learning and re-learning things.  Part of this includes wrestling with how things will look and seeking guidance from Him and others.  Today, turned out to be one of those days where I learned a bit more and made the lesson a little more tangible, real, and sink in.  Since I’m into those dictionary definitions lately, we’ll start there:

let go: relinquish one’s grip, allow to move, stop holding onto

To go along with this definition, there’s this little handy story to go along with it.  I have a watch that I decide to give to you.  I give the watch to you and put it on your wrist.  Except, I decide I want to look at the time so I take it back and then put it back on your wrist.  Or maybe I just hold onto the watch while it’s on your wrist or keep touching the watch while you’re wearing it.  Awkward, I know!  Basically, if I keep doing this then I haven’t really given you the watch.  We’re more sharing the watch or I’m trying really hard to get the watch back.  So, if I want to “let go” of the watch, I must actually give it up and not peek at it or take it back for a few minutes, for a second or for any amount of time.

The same thing is true with the things that we lay down at the cross for Jesus to take care of for us.  We have to trust Him with the valuable item and let Him have it completely.  He gets to do whatever He wants with that watch whether He changes it into something else or gives it to someone else or even lets us have it back some day.  We can’t hold onto the watch or try to keep tabs on what He’s doing in and for the watch.  At this time, for me, this tangibly means that I have to let go of communicating, checking blogs, asking others, and I need to genuinely and continually trust Jesus with the whole situation and lay it at the cross (He even gave me a physical reminder by leaving the outline of my cross necklace thanks to some happy sunshine).  Laying it down and actually letting go is hard, but once again worth it in the end because then I’m not focused on what I’ve “let go” at all.  I only fix my eyes on Jesus who can give me whatever He wants in whatever timing He likes.

Wonderwall

Wonder: a feeling of surprise mingled with admiration caused by something beautiful, unexpected, unfamiliar or inexplicable

Wall: a continuous vertical brick or stone structure that encloses or divides an area of land. something perceived as a protective or restrictive barrier.

“Today is gonna be the day that they’re gonna throw it back to you

by now you shoulda somehow realized what you gotta do

I don’t believe anybody feels the way I do about you now

And all the roads we have to walk are winding

and all the lights that lead us there are blinding

Because maybe you’re gonna be the one that saves me

and after all you’re my wonderwall.“

I’ve realized what “I gotta do.”  Run to my wonderwall (my protector, my strong tower, the one who leaves me in awe and wonder at His love and forgiveness).  Run to Jesus.  Because that is where I find healing and I trust Him “because You’re gonna be the one that saves me.”  He is the one that makes “all the lights that lead [me] there are blinding.”  He brings light to the darkness (1 John 1:5).  God is so blinding that Moses literally glowed when he left the presence of the Lord (Exodus 34:29).  He makes a way in the wilderness: “Do not call to mind the former things, or ponder things of past.  Behold, I will do something new, now it will spring forth; will you not be aware of it? I will even make a roadway in the wilderness, rivers in the desert” (Isaiah 43:18-19). He wants me to get to the place where He wants me and to do what “I gotta do” because He knows what is best and causes all things to work for the good of those who love him (Romans 8:28).  He loves me like no nobody else does.  So, that’s where I’m running today.  To the foot of the cross where I lay it all down and ask Him to “take it all” because I trust Him.  He’s my wonderwall.