Confessional: The Dreaded Third Wheel
June 24, 2008
Am I being selfish? Or do I simply know myself well enough? I would rather watch my dad’s horribly boring old movies with the volume way too loud than being the third wheel or the fifth wheel or whatever your choice. Why? Even though I would have fun with the people and enjoy myself, I know how the night afterward would turn out still. I’m not saying that I don’t ever want to do things with couples because that’s ridiculous and couples are great. Plus, eventually I’ll be at a place where I can go home and not cry myself to sleep or tear up while with them. For now, I just know that I’m still at that place where when the night comes and I’m all alone I’ll fall apart and rehash every moment. The last part I think sets me farther back from being able to reach that place where “it’s okay.” Though, I could also argue that going through the last part gets me to the next place; therefore, I should be hanging out with a lot more couples. Beats me. Probably a little bit of both hanging out with them and saying no thanks. All about the balance. So, there’s an early morning confessional for you.
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Carrie | June 24, 2008 at 8:33 am
Or you could hang out with your single friends
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B | July 7, 2008 at 4:11 pm
I dont have any single friends. I feel your pain. I can hang with my friends ( and their women), but at some point I begin to think about my loneliness and it never ends well….I hate the whole thing. Reationships and women. I will never be happy.